Wednesday, December 31, 2008

happy new year to me...

so i've had an interesting couple of days. went into the office yesterday to say hi to everyone and pick up some stuff to work on from home and instead...i got laid off. in fact, everyone on the staff is laid off. the company was finally to the point where they couldn't ignore the fact that they have no money because the market sucks. which basically sucks for everyone involved.

i'm not as bummed about it as i thought i would be. granted, i'm freaked because i don't know what my next move is going to be. but on the other hand, i can collect unemployment and stay home with cash longer while i look for something else. we still haven't gotten it all worked out, but there is a good chance that i might only have to go back to work part time, at least for awhile. which means no paying for daycare, woo hoo! plus, i've already gotten a couple of leads from a former co-worker (thanks to helping julie and nathan looking for places to live...long story - let's just say its a VERY small world) so i'm not too terribly worried. but all good thoughts and prayers are appreciated!

mostly i'm bummed out because i really loved my job. didn't always love the people i worked with (or for, for that matter) but i loved the work that i did. so i'm a little sad.

anyhow, hope your new year is safe and wonderful!

(eta: picture is from a couple weeks ago, when we first got some snow.)

Tuesday, December 30, 2008

3 days of christmas...

we spent christmas eve out in dallas with nate's parents. didn't get a single picture from that christmas because our camera battery died. these are from when we got home. we decided to open our gifts and stockings that night since the morning was going to be crazy.

i think this one is my favorite :]

we spent christmas day out at my parents, which was tons of fun. cash was sick and cranky all day though. this was the only good picture i got of him :[ we think he must have caught some sort of stomach bug because he spent the next 24 hours puking EVERYWHERE. oh and puke laundry? has to be the most foul stuff EVER. i have a new found appreciation for my mother.

the ferrets got presents from santa too. boston immediately confiscated all the squeaky toys and hid them all over the room. i found the glove in my pajama drawer yesterday :]

the day after christmas we had dinner with the fordyce side. didn't really get any pictures other than this one with stuart (but how cute is he!? cash and him are going to be best buds :])

Wednesday, December 24, 2008

Tuesday, December 23, 2008

winter wonderland

the weather here has been AWESOME. we'be had snow on the ground since the 13th - best december ever! unfortunately, all this snow means nate's home from work...he's been driving me a bit crazy. but he's loving all the extra time he gets to spend with cash.

eta: these were taken a couple days ago, right after the freezing rain left a quarter inch layer of ice on everything. saturday we got another 4-5 inches on top of the ice - i'll have to share those pictures later! :]

only two days left till christmas!

Monday, December 22, 2008

nate - the opposite of help

a sleep deprived nate is a scary beast.

this morning i asked him to put a bagel in the toaster for me while i fed cash.
he toasted it twice.
burned the bagel to a crisp.
and set the smoke alarm off.

good thing he's cute.

Sunday, December 21, 2008

someone's a month old today!

i can't even believe it...this month has FLOWN by. a few things of note:

1. he can push himself up on his arms - amazing! (ok, probably only amazing to us...but whatever.)

2. we figured out why he was so fussy a couple days back...apparently i had too much coffee for his little body to handle. i'm restricted to less than 12 oz a day...sniff. but 12 oz is better than nothing!

3. he's been sleeping all through the night basically. last night he slept for 7 hours! of course, he didn't go to sleep until 1:30...but still. we've also discovered that if he takes a bath at night it helps him sleep longer so we've begun a little nightly routine.

4. our lives are so boring...but in other news, janet and rob are opening a second willamette noodle location - sweet! we helped sand and paint on saturday - i can't wait to until it's all done!

5. that's all...i'm off to bed!

Thursday, December 18, 2008

Wednesday, December 17, 2008

mornings are rough around here...

for us at least.

we think he's getting a tad colic-y. which means that nate has to make sure i don't 'accidently' put his crib out on the balcony.

not that i would actually do that...but just in case.

Tuesday, December 16, 2008

Monday, December 15, 2008

please - hold your applause

i'd like to take a moment to give myself a pat on the cards are sealed, addressed and ready to be stamped. i only have a couple more christmas presents to buy (wrapping...totally different story.) AND i managed to scrapbook TWO layouts yesterday - BAM! i'm starting to get the hang of this staying home thing... :]

now that i've got that out of the is good - he's finally succumb to the magic of the binky (YES!) there for awhile he liked to camp out on my boob and let me tell ya - that was getting old. now he's a binky junkie (and thankfully it hasn't affected his ability to breast feed. nothing comes between that boy and a meal!)

and because of last night's snow storm, nate is home from work today. and i'm reminded that in order for me to truly appreciate him, he needs to LEAVE. absence really does make the heart grow fonder :]

because i can't post without a picture...and i haven't taken pictures of anything (or anyone) else! but look who finally lost his stump - hello belly button!

Friday, December 12, 2008

labeled for convenience...

just in case we confuse him with the ferrets...

hey - don't judge. sleep deprivation is a scary thing. :]

Wednesday, December 10, 2008

holy #$%&*!, that thing is bigger than my head!

i'll give you two guesses about what i'm talking about...but i think you'll only need one...
doesn't his face just say it all?

breast feeding - what an experience.

Monday, December 8, 2008

eat. sleep. poop.

life is rough when you're 2 weeks old.

we went in for his two week check up on friday...he's gained a pound and grown almost an inch in TWO WEEKS. holy grocery bill batman, we are SO screwed once this kid reaches puberty.

Friday, December 5, 2008

boob. it's what's for dinner.

muah ha ha ha...i've been laughing about that for days. which is yet another sign that i need to GET OUT OF THE HOUSE. i walked to the mailbox yesterday afternoon and it felt like a vacation :] not that cash is a fussy baby - he's really not, at all. but i've discovered that i can't be cooped up in the house for too long before i start to lose it.

my sister has been here all week helping me out and it has been AWESOME. seriously, my sister kicks ass. and cash has been awfully nice to her and hasn't peed, barfed or pooped on her. he has not been so nice to mommy. let's just say we had a poop-tastic night and went through 2 sleepers. fabulous.

we introduced the ferrets to cash the other day and they? couldn't have been less interested. boston instantly fixated on the rattle attached to his bouncer and saphira was transfixed by it vibrating. i think we have to be more concerned with the ferrets stealing cash's toys then we do them biting him. phew.

happy friday!

Tuesday, December 2, 2008


our little man makes the funniest little faces - especially after he's done eating. these pics are blurry and horrible but they are some of my favorite of him...

Monday, December 1, 2008

the things they never tell you...

--when you're nursing, the cold air is EVIL. the first time i went outside and caught a cold breeze i thought i was going to cry.

--you thought you were crazy hormonal before...HA! i cried over ruining some hamburger helper. CRIED. wtf?

--suddenly your body is able to survive off one hurried meal a day and 4 hours of sleep. unfortunately, the same cannot be said for dads. i love nate, but he is useless to me if he hasn't had enough sleep. i'll gladly take the night shift if it means he's able to make a pot of coffee in the morning. while we were in the hospital he would compulsively clean in his sleep deprived state, causing us to lose more paperwork than i thought possible.

--making four phone calls and putting away one basket of laundry is a very productive day.

--and all those cliches you SWORE you'd never say when you became a parent? are totally true.

but cute is he?? i loves him...even if he is sucking the life right out of me. i can't consume enough calories to keep up with him.

Sunday, November 30, 2008

it's been a great week

....and feeling very blessed.

nate's been home all week and it has been awesome! i haven't had to lift a finger :] my man is the best.

and cash is just about the most perfect baby ever - hardly ever fusses, eats a TON (seriously - i pity cows) and is sleeping for 3-4 hours at a time.


which is totally nature's way of trying to trick us into more children - i've got your number nature and i'm not falling for it!

nate had a poker tournament today so it's just been cash and i...i've spent the entire day editing the hospital pictures (and i'm done, woo hoo!)

it's been a very productive day :]

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

the birth plan

i want to get the whole 'birthing experience written down before i forget any details :]

so we were scheduled to be induced on Thursday, November 20th. I wasn't looking forward to that, because I really wanted to go through it the natural way. But I was also SO ready to be done. I spent most of Thursday lying on the couch, taking it easy. For some reason I had a feeling it was going to be a LONG night. At 3 Janet treated me to a pedicure (thanks janet - my toes are so pretty!) so I would have something nice to look at :] They say that getting a pedicure late in pregnancy can put you into labor...they must be right, because by the time we left there at four, I was having some pretty good contractions. I got home and we rushed around getting everything ready for the hospital - at this point my contractions were about 10 minutes apart. I was supposed to eat dinner beforehand but had completely lost my appetite.

We got checked in and taken up to our labor room at six. They instantly hooked me up to the heart beat monitor and the contraction monitor and sure enough, they were coming about every 9 minutes or so. Nate was mesmerized by that thing - it wasn't very helpful because he would say, 'whoa, that was a BIG one!' Uh...ya thanks honey, I noticed. I was still managing my pain ok but had a feeling that was going to be short lived.

The midwife came in about 6:30 - she checked me out and discovered I was fully effaced and 2 cm dilated. She decided against doing the cervical gel (meant to soften the cervix in the hopes of getting labor started - my cervix was as soft as it was going to get so it would have been pointless.) Instead, she started me on Pitocin. We could have waited it out and done it without but she was afraid that labor would stop or be too slow - because I was overdue she was worried about stressing the baby out too much.

Once they gave me the Pitocin I wanted to DIE. The contractions were coming hard and fast - about every 2-3 minutes. If labor had progressed naturally I probably would have been able to go alot longer without an epidural but I couldn't take much more of the pain once they started Pitocin. She told me I had to wait until I was at least dilated 3 cm - that ended up taking over an hour. I won't lie - it was incredibly painful. And unfortunately, Nate wasn't able to help as much as I would have liked. Because of the Pitocin I had to be constantly monitored - which meant I was pretty much confined to the bed or the chair. No walking around, no massages, nothing. If I had been able to do those things I might have been able to handle it better. Maybe :]

Nate really was great though...he turned the tv on to a show I like to distract me. He held my hand and let me squeeze as hard as I wanted (I think I hurt him at one point - his eyes got really big and he looked over at the nurse like, HELP!) He stroked my head and talked me through breathing (funny, I would forget to breath ALOT.) He really was wonderful. Afterwards he said he was really struggling - he had no idea how much pain I was going to be in and he felt helpless.

After an hour of the Pitocin induced contractions they checked me again and I was dilated to 3 cm (hoooray! bring on the drugs!) They gave me some IV medication to calm me down so they could do the epidural. I was expecting that to be awful but it really wasn't - the IV they put in my hand hurt WAY worse. It didn't hurt that the anesthesiaologist was WONDERFUL. Seriously, I wanted to kiss him. Once the epidural kicked in I was a happy camper!

About nine my friend Amanda stopped by. We originally didn't want anyone in the room during labor but since I got the epidural we thought it wouldn't hurt to have a little company. It was a nice distraction. Nate and her left about 9:30 to get him something to drink. Amanda offered to stay but they had to examin me so I told her to go with him. About that time my blood pressure took a nose dive, sending Cash's heart rate down as well. I was SO freaked out, made even worse by the fact that Nate wasn't there. They had me turn to the other side and his heart rate climbed back up. Nate was pretty upset that he wasn't there but I figured we were out of the woods and told him not to feel bad.

Mom and Lisa stopped by for a bit too but by that time I was pretty out of it and tired. Nate kicked everyone out (on my request) about 10 so we could get some rest. I didn't sleep but Nate managed to get a little bit of a nap in. My midwife (who I LOVE LOVE LOVE, btw) checked me again at midnight and I was only 4 cm - I cried. It was so frustrating. I was afraid that I got the epidural too soon, that we were going to be there all sucked. Not only that, but the epidural was starting to wear off a bit - I was beginning to feel contractions again. No where near the intensity that I felt them before, but enough to make me uncomfortable and unable to sleep.

At 1:30 they checked me again and I was dilated to 7 cm - unfortunately we had no time to celebrate this because as soon as she was done checking me, Cash's heart rate plummeted to practically nothing. Nate woke up from his nap to alarms going off, nurses and doctors rushing around me - I was so scared and he saw it in my face and went completely white. They began prepping me for a c-section, calling the OR and getting a room ready all while anxiously waiting for his heart rate to climb back up. It did, very slowly which concerned both my midwife and the on-call OBGYN. After a brief discussion of the pros and cons of doing a c-section vs continuing on naturally, I decided to go ahead with the c-section. No hesitation. I couldn't risk his health just because I didn't want to go into surgery. As soon as I gave the go ahead, the staff jumped into action mode. The anesthesiaologist came back to give me stronger drugs (again...LOVE him) they got Nate ready to go and in about 5 minutes they wheeled me into the OR. Nate couldn't follow me in right away because they wanted to prep me. The whole thing is a blur...I remember being rolled onto the surgery bed and them putting the sheet up. I believe it was about 2:15 at this point. My midwife was right by my head, holding my hand the whole time. I was scared but not nearly as much as I thought I'd be - I was completely focused on hearing my son cry for the first time.

Apparently Cash's heart rate began to fall again, so they told the midwife to run and get Nate. The anesthesiaologist took over holding my hand while she was gone (did I mention how awesome he was?? Seriously...) Having the c-section done was bizarre...I could feel pressure, and felt them pulling and tugging. It was surreal. Nothing actually hurt until they stitched me up - that was a little painful. As soon as the midwife left the room I heard the doctor say, 'tell them to hurry, we can't wait.' And 5 seconds later (at 2:31 am) I heard him cry and she exclaimed, 'it's a boy!' I can't tell you how relieved I was.

Nate didn't make it back into the room in time to see him be born or hear his first cry, but they rushed him into the room where they were cleaning Cash right away. After a few minutes he came to my side to tell me how perfect he was - I'll never forget how happy he looked. Not too long after they brought him over to Nate to hold and show me - seeing him for the first time...they really are no words. It's a moment I'll never forget.

A half hour later I was stitched up and in recovery holding Cash for the first time. It didn't matter that nothing went according to plan...he was healthy, I was healthy. Life is good. I was actually amazed at how little I hurt once the epidural wore off. Obviously I was quite drugged up but even still...when I had my appendix out I was in SO much pain. This surgery doesn't even compare.

Sooo, that was pretty much it. Cash was worth every single painful second...but I'm thinking I don't really ever want to do that again!

ETA: we took over 200 pictures during our hospital stay...needless to say I've got some editing to do when he and I aren't napping!

Monday, November 24, 2008

we're home - happy and healthy

here's the jist, in case you hadn't heard...
he was born november 21st at 2:31 am via emergency c-section. wasn't our plan at all, but his heart rate kept dropping and we didn't want to risk any more time in labor (was in labor for about 10 hours.)
8 lbs, 7 oz and 21 inches long - he's perfect in every way.

ta ta for now :]

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

the end is near...

and i'm a little sad. a little terrified. mostly just excited to bring our boy home.

little sad to no longer have him so close to me. it's no surprise that this pregnancy hasn't been full of very many pleasant experiences - i've downright hated good portions of it. but it's still special. and awesome. and amazing. and i wouldn't change a minute of it (...ok...i wouldn't be heartbroken about losing the throwing up parts...)

little terrified that this time next week i'll be home with him. all. by. myself. i'm really hoping those maternal instincts kick in.

SO excited to finally see him. and hold him. and take a million pictures of him that i'm going to force you guys to sit through :]

only a few days now...

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

meet gracie joy

cash's first girlfriend :]

she was scheduled to make her debut on my due date (november 12th) but decided that didn't work for her and came on the 9th instead. she's just the cutest little thing.

i'd been holding her for a couple minutes when cash started kicking her right in the bum (his way of saying hi i guess.) she responded by letting one rip. i think it's love.

Monday, November 17, 2008

what happened to your belly button?

ever since my stomach started to get really big, sophie has taken a unique interest in all things pregnancy. every time we go over there, she comes running over and asks if baby cash is still in my tummy (to which i reply, he better be or we've got BIG problems.) i think she's starting to get a bit impatient because this weekend she asked, 'when IS he going to come out of your tummy?' ah, the million dollar question other favorites were, 'what happened to your belly button?' and 'how did he get in there?' (to which i replied, 'god put him in there.' 'how?' 'magic.' because i? am SO not having the birds and bees talk with a four year old.)

this week she actually started talking to him (which was the cutest thing i've EVER seen. we didn't even tell her to, she just ran up and said, 'hi baby cash!' i about died, it was so cute.)

something tells me she's going to claim cash as her own too...she seems to have a thing for the men in my life :]