Monday, November 30, 2009

where did the naps go?

the past two days cash hasn't taken ihs morning nap.
and today he only slept for 20 MINUTES. TWENTY.
if i go missing, just know i'm in a corner some where, rocking back and forth and talking to myself.

Friday, November 27, 2009

she's HOME.

i was afraid she would never come home.
but today, when i was driving home from getting dinner for the boy and i, i happened to see a sign out of the corner of my eye that said, FOUND DOG and a phone number. i stopped in the middle of the road, backed up and called right then.
i almost started crying after talking to the woman who had him when we both realized she had piper.

we're so glad she's home.
((she's been snoring away on her bed ever since cash finished dinner. apparently running all over the countryside and having a sleep over at the neighbors was tiring.))

Thursday, November 26, 2009

minus one.

piper ran away yesterday. AGAIN.
unfortunately, this time she wiggled out of her collar. which means she's out roaming the countryside sans any sort of identification or way to get her back to us.
i'm heartbroken over it.

if this had happened with any other dog, i would have been sad.
but she was my dad's dog. i clung to her when i was the saddest - she had a way of comforting me that no one else could.
maybe because i knew how much my dad loved her.

she was a giant pain the ass.
and there were definitely some days i wished she wasn't a part of our family.
but now, all i want is for her to come home.

hopefully she will find her way back to us.
but for now, our little family is minus one very special dog.

Wednesday, November 25, 2009

give thanks.

this year, i'm thankful for:
a busy restaurant.
best friends.
my mom.
the best one year old i've ever known.
a cozy bed in a drafty house.
my husband being able to do something he loves.
and my wonderful, crazy full life.

what are YOU thankful for this year?
hope your thanksgiving is full of magic.

Sunday, November 22, 2009


cash --
you're one years old - ONE. frankly, your dad and i can hardly believe all three of us have made it this far, ALIVE. that alone makes this year a win.

you're walking more and more every day - you still like to hold on to someone's finger when you're walking.
you have started to throw little mini tantrums. you'll wave your arms up and down, make this spurting sound, flop down on your butt and then bang your head on the floor. i'm not such a fan. i can just see you doing this in the toy section of target someday. it's going to be fun.
you still love the bathtub - even if there's no water in it. one day i heard the sound of bottles falling into the bathtub - i went into the bathroom and found you sitting in the tub, in your pajamas surrounded by all the soap and shampoo bottles. to this day, i have no idea how you got in there without hurting yourself.
you still love music - you bob your head and shake your little bum when it's something you really love.
you only have two teeth on the bottom, but you work them extra hard. there isn't much that you won't try to mash into oblivion with those two little teeth. you love fruit (blueberries and kiwis are your fave) and you're a big fan of cheese and bread. your hot and cold on the veggies still. hopefully that will change.
you know the meaning of no - one time you started to touch the tv and i said, cash NO! you stopped, looked at me and then slowly reached out and touched the tv anyway. i had a hard time not laughing at how clever you are. i'm pretty sure you get that from me.
you tolerate the dog, but you find the ferrets fascinating.
you can play catch with one of piper's rubber balls by rolling it back and forth. you squeal and laugh every time i roll it back and you catch it on the first try.
you are finally sleeping all the way through the night (!!!) but you don't sleep in like you used to. mommy misses that.

you really are the best.
i'm so lucky to be your momma.

Saturday, November 21, 2009


one year ago today, at 2:31 AM, cash finally arrived.

and it's been non-stop fun ever since :]
thanks for choosing us buddy - we love you.

Wednesday, November 18, 2009


amanda is here for an extended visit.
cash loves it because he thinks she's awesome (which she is.)
i love it because my dishes magically get washed whenever she's around (did i mention she's awesome?)

we love our amanka.
((nate has a habit of making up obscure nicknames for people. somehow amanda turned into amanka. which has now turned into manka. it used to drive her crazy, ha!)

Friday, November 13, 2009

the wandering piper.

so a few weeks ago, we thought for sure we were going to become dog-less. to make a very long story short, piper and lucy got out of the henry's backyard while we were over for dinner, decided to play chicken in the street, piper was captured by a concerned neighbor, lucy ran off and snuck back into the house like nothing happened and piper proceeded to have an impromptu sleep-over at a strangers house. and, being the glass is half empty type person that i am, said she was probably half-way to mexico by now and we weren't ever going to see her again.

the next morning we got a call from the henry's neighbor saying that they had piper and we could pick her up any time. THIS DOG GIVES ME GRAY HAIR.

nate and i have always said that piper would be the PERFECT dog if she didn't run away all the time. she loves (ok - tolerates) cash. she couldn't be more gentle with him (i even caught him playing in her food while she was eating and she just looked at him like, kid PLEASE.) the most hilarious thing about her is the way she snaps right to attention when she hears the B and D words (breakfast and dinner, of course.) i barely get the word dinner out of my mouth and she's at my feet like, can we have goldfish with dinner please? they're my favorite.
piper, modeling her christmas present.
i told dad last year that i was buying piper a sweater for christmas. i couldn't resist when i saw this little cable knit number at petsmart.
if dad were here, he would have rolled his eyes when i gave it to her. and then laughed when he saw her prance around like a little princess in it. and he would have secretly LOVED IT.

....btw, i had to wrestle her out of the dang thing - she's such a girl.

Thursday, November 12, 2009

this never gets old.

except when it does.
cash is a TOTAL momma's boy. especially right now. he's been sick for a couple days and NO ONE, ABSOLUTELY NO ONE ELSE, can make him feel better.
it's tiring. but at the same time, wonderful.
a small part of me was always a little afraid that he would prefer someone else over me.
clearly, that's not the case.
and you know? i'm ok with it.

especially since when he's older and thinks i'm a big lame-ass i'll be able to whip these pictures out and say, SEE? you thought i was AWESOME then.

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

the scrap kind.

i haven't shared some of my pages in FOREEEEEVER. and honestly, i don't have a whole lot of time to scrap anymore. and the stuff that i have done hasn't been all that interesting either. but these are some that i'm actually kind of proud of. (and yes, the pictures SUCK. not only do i not have time to scrap, i REALLY don't have time to take good pictures of my pages.)

Monday, November 9, 2009


i would have bought him some new music.
and a birthday card from cash.
we would have spent the day celebrating his 50th birthday.
i would have been happy.
instead, i feel hollow.
heartbroken that he's no longer here with me.

never a day goes by that i don't think about him. miss him. cry.
some times the pain is dull - others as fresh as it was 7 months ago.
it will be with me for the rest of my life.

i love you daddy.
happy birthday.

Sunday, November 8, 2009


halloween was rushed and completely unplanned this year. nate was at the restaurant, i didn't put my costume together until the morning of, cash was cranky and badly needed a nap...i could go on, but i'll spare you the complaining. even with all that, it was still a pretty good first halloween for cash. he only tricked and treated at grandma and momma mary's house, but he's not that into candy anyway. after wandering around neighborhoods with janet and the kids, we went to nathan and julie's annual halloween party where he experienced gummy bears for the first time (he's a fan.)

in other news: i gave myself a black eye today, the restaurant flooded from a leak in the roof, i now have a headache from said black eye and i am trapped at home until the dish guy gets here to fix our satellite. awesome.

Friday, November 6, 2009

sweet JESUS.

the gods of technology HATE ME. so far, in the past 2 weeks, my computer has broken, my phone has quit texting, my car is acting up ANDDDDD...our satellite went out last night.
so that's the reason behind my absence.
back to my regularly scheduled ranting soon.
(and do i EVER have some pent up anger to let loose.)